Words Of Wisdom

I have outlasted all desire,
My dreams and I have grown apart;
My grief alone is left entire,
The gleanings of an empty heart.

-Untitled, 1821 Alexander Pushkin


Tuesday 8 September 2009

Motion


As she alighted from the stairs, he saw her face, all too familiar. All her perfections and imperfections in one vision of light. Her chapped lips, the uneven blush of her cheeks, her swollen left eye; her pair of bright mirrors, the effortless smile- he saw them all, and loved them all. He immediately started towards her, taking joyful strides, eager to ask her how her day had been.

But his vision was invaded by another. Rooted to the spot, he watched as the person came to her and tapped her from behind. She turned around the wrong side, eyes darting to her left. The person laughed as he teased her about her stupidity, and her eyes lighted up, they too took striding steps together. The same striding steps he had just taken.

He swung back to the opposite direction, making quick, agitated slides on the slippery porcelain floor towards the office. He continued walking, trudging on through the embattlement of his heart, until he stopped, dead, leaning his head against the pillar. Curious onlookers stared, then scooted off as he glared at them. He did not need the pity of the world right now.

He thought to a time when he told himself he would be happy no matter what happened, and realised how quickly does words dissolved before the pain in his heart. The pain, that poked at him, prodded at him in his sleep, in his walk, in his every waking and sleeping moment. A pain that incited tears but resulted in none. Pain.

Pain. That was what he had been through for four long years, always adamant, always disbelieving. He looked at a tree. On of its leaves, there was a caterpillar, hanging from a loose cocoon thread. It would surely drop if just once the tree was shaken. Perhaps he was like this caterpillar. He was holding on to a hopeless hope, a thin line of belief, that when broken would lead his emotions the way of gravity- down.

And so, he walked along the corridors, dragging his feet along. His feet, like him, were tired. But nevertheless, he kept on moving. Moving towards her. Towards the hopeless hope. He kept on moving ...

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OMG KARJIN! i just read this (: and i know you may be alright by now (: but i just thought that i'd let you know, life is a long and winding road, but in this winding road, the wind throws little paper boxes at you, paper boxes you can choose to catch or not, boxes you can choose to open or not. (i know it's cheesy, but hear me out) it full of bends and turns with no convex mirror to warn you what's coming round the bend. it may be a little paper heart fluttering in the breeze, it may well be a LORRY hurtling your way. but the thing is, that you'll never know and you don't know until you've reached the bend, cross the tiny ledge, survive it and continue walking (: it's alright to mourn, mope, be angry, hit walls, be sad. as long as you pick yourself up again, and continue down that ledge, embracing every other paper box that the wind brings you. never give up hope, and don't throw them away, just because the last box you picked was empty, doesn't mean the rest will be (: one day you'll open a paper box, and in it will be a pink heart that has 2 names on it. yours and your girl's :)

oh well! have a nice day in HELP! and do your best! i know you will anyway!

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